I'm in over my head, and hoping that even if someone donates a penny here or there it could add up and help... I had read on yahoo answers that some people dealing with the general issues I have created a page like this in hopes that it could possibly by some miracle help. I created mine about a month ago, and still nothing, but I don't think it hurts and the worst that I know that can happen is nothing at all..
Until May of 2010 I was a happily working single mother who was just trying to get by.. Things have changed.. I have complicated issues that have made it literally impossible to work and have filed for disability.. I've been waiting since December of 2010 for a court date, but they apparently can take up to 18 months to receive, and then up to 6 or so months afterwards to finally get a decision.. I do have a lawyer who has taken my case for free and will be paid if I win and if I lose it's no cost which is how it is commonly worked out, so I have that to be thankful for, but it does not speed up the process. I can say I'm hopeful, because I don't think my lawyer would have taken up the case if he did not believe I could win.
Unfortunately though, because of this my family is falling apart, my bills are rapidly piling up, and from all the research I have done I have even discovered that sadly some people have passed waiting on a decision. This is not my case seeing as I'm not in danger of passing because of my disability, and I don't want to lead anyone to think so... It has never been this difficult to have food, electric, water.. My sons father refuses to help with child support, so yes, I do receive minimal state help because of it, but it is literally enough to pay rent.. I feel helpless and even worse I feel worthless.. If it weren't for my son I don't know where I'd be, but I stay strong for him and provide his needs even if it means I can't even buy myself proper necessary items that are embarrassing to even mention (bras, razors, medications)... My mother is disabled and wheelchair bound and my father is legally blind.. They need a lot of help so when they do help me with bills it's because I help them with chores around their home, run errands and take them to appointments. I have never in my life expected something from nothing, especially now days, and I honestly don't expect it to really fix any of my current issues.. If you've ever wanted to help someone, someone in need of it, Please, like it says, even if it's a penny, they add up.. I know that now days it's easy to come by a scam, but I'm seriously facing these actual circumstances. I have tried doing as many odd jobs as my disability would allow, such as trying to sell my art and photography and I don't even know how to get those things really rolling. When things were better I gave what I could to earthquake victims, food/toiletry drives and even the lonesome veterans that sometimes sit on the curbs. In all honesty I'm hoping somehow maybe Karma for all that will set it's course, now that I'm on the opposite end of the fence.
I've never done anything like this before, and it's new to me and I really don't expect anything to come of it but I figured it was worth a shot if someone might be able to give a cent here or there... Even if you've read this out of curiosity, and don't plan on donating at all, it's okay... I know you're thinking of the person who is writing this, and they say it's the thought that counts.. So I thank you.. Immensely..
I wish there was some way of proving this was legit, that there's actually a young woman with a child on the other end, because I have had a few people question it and go as far as to call me names, I'd possibly question something like this myself, so I guess it would be naive to think that some people wouldn't. A lot of people probably wonder why I don't ask churches or friends, and mostly the reason I don't is because they don't have it to give, and I grew up more than 2 hours away from where I live now and never have the time or money to even visit with them. I also don't let anyone know how bad a shape I'm in, and that does include my family and friends and why I'm doing this anonymously.. I didn't even know how to go about this, but I just figured I'd be honest and straight forward. If you've read this far I thank you, even if you don't donate and at least hope things get better I thank you sincerely.. Because I'm not giving up hope that maybe it will happen.
